I know it’s been fall for more than a minute and I am enjoying it. The leaves are a changing, I get to put on a sweater every once in awhile and it’s getting cooler. Watching the trees change color and the leaves fall, just makes me think about what changes for us from season to season. Different holidays, clothes, activities, maybe even the people with whom we spend time.
This change in season always brings me some hope, and new inspiration, I like all the seasons for different reasons. I like the colors and the coolness of fall. I also appreciate how the trees shed their leaves to make way for what is coming (new growth in the spring). If I had to “shed some leaves” this season, what might those be?
Well, I realized this week, that I still have “some feelings” about a situation that happened a few years ago. I thought I had made peace with it. When I dug a bit deeper, I have made peace with the situation, but I did not make peace with all the people in the situation.
When I found out I might be seeing someone I hadn’t seen in awhile, my reaction was surprising to me. I realize that I do not control other people’s reactions to situations and I can’t expect them to do what I would do if “they were in my shoes”. I do wonder if events may have played out differently if they had done “what I would have done”. I know in my heart that the person bears me no malice, I just realized that I had not completely let it go.
So, I spent some time venting my feelings to God, it was quite a rant. I felt so much better afterwards. I don’t need to resolve it with the person, I needed to make my peace and let it go. I did not end up seeing the person, but I am glad that the feelings came up so I could see them, examine them, and see if I still wanted them to have power over me. I don’t want hard feelings towards people stealing my peace or my joy.
The season is changing, what do you need to let go of to fully experience it?
